Pressure keeps building and building, looking for a better release.

It seems like the further I keep going the more I keep falling backwards. I am now caretaker and main breadwinner for my sick mother but I still don't drive. So, my sick mother has to drive me places to do breadwinner stuff. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me sometimes. I just can't keep myself on the path of ambition and success. I'm always on the dirt road of sloth and procrastination. I just wish that something good would go my way for once like: meet a cute girl who likes me, find a good career and make some good money, or just have one full day where the needs of the world doesn't fall on my shoulders. My outlook on life is just to take it one day at a time and hope that the next day was better than the last. Pressure is all about me and it's really getting to me. My hobbies and passions are getting stale and I need a new outlet for this pent-up aggression. Also, it shouldn't tired me out like work. I thought perhaps focusing on my future dream of owning a computer store. I dream of tinkering with hardware and software in a noise -free environment. Well, this is a short post but I just needed to get a few things off my mind. Tata for now, everyone