Monday, July 16, 2007

Slammed into the Brick Wall called Life......Ouch!!!!

Well, after a grueling and crazy weekend of studying and running, I took my first English test and passed it with 78. I was ok about it but I was little bummed after all the studying that's all I did. Then went to my other class and forgot about the test completely. To say I was scared would be an understatement at this point. So I just sucked it in, prayed, took it and then banged my head on the wall of failure. Ouch! Man, was I pissed to see that grade. Feeling like the byproduct of a cow, I walked away in agony. In cartoons, when a person is sad or depressed they can be seen with a rain cloud overhead. In this case, it was a downgraded tropical storm. I called my mom to talk about it and she gave me the great Mom lines. I started feeling a little bit better about myself and ready to buckle down and get my crap together. On a lighter note, Allyson and I are getting really close to each other. We talked for over 2 hours and I am feeling a stronger connection with her. The chemistry has always been good but it's getting better and better in the coming weeks. She is the one girl that I have talked to who doesn't excessive amounts of emotional baggage. Not saying it's bad to have some but just not alot of it. I really care about her, I am just afraid that I might mess something up. I've never been in a long lasting relationship, so I don't know many of the "do's and don'ts." I am glad that she wants us to take our time and really connect more. She is so great because I never really felt like I had to be someone else in order to be with her. I could just be myself and do my thing and not have to change my personality and lifestyle. Well, I gotta start buckling down on my studies now. Tata for now and see ya'll later. Peace out.
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